Looking back, I can't even imagine being in school now. It's funny how when you're going through something, it's all you see and then once it's over, it's almost like it never happened. It kinda sucks that my whole childhood, all I was thinking about was when I would FINALLY turn 18 and move out of my mom's house and come back home, here in Washington. (I LOVE this place!!!!)

I didn't go to my graduation, because I didn't want to wait an extra 3 days to go back to Washington. I wanting to see my dad, gma and my younger siblings sooo bad. However, I will never forget what it was like, on that last day of school. Walking through the hallway, saying goodbye to my favorite teacher. She gave me a cute card with a Starbucks gift card inside. She knew me too well!!

I remember walking out, realizing that I was free.. I no longer lived with my mom.. I had the rest of my life ahead of me and had the choice, at that moment, do to whatever I wanted. What did I do? I cried. I gave my friend Katie the biggest hug and I just felt so accomplished.

What an amazing feeling it was when I got my diploma mailed to me!! I looked at that thing.. just in awe. How did all those years of school, everything I'd gone through, just end like that? It was an amazing feeling. It was almost scary.

Looking back, it makes me realize, that no matter what you're going through, no matter how tough it seems-it WILL get better. It HAS to! There is always something positive to find in ever situation that we deal with.

Thinking now, to my grandma. The horrible news that I've found-I can't believe she has cancer. I remember sitting in the room with her the first time she had her chemo and I just had to get up and leave. I couldn't stop crying. It's strange though.. after that day.. I haven't cried as much. I've learned that the only thing I can do is take every moment that I can spend with her and try to make her as happy as possible. Whether that's making her something she loves to eat, taking her for a walk in her NEW wheelchair! What a blessing that chair has been.. she's able to go with me anywhere and I know she loves it. (Even though she is a bit bummed that she can't be as active as she once was)

So everyone:

Enjoy each moment, because you never know when things may change. And when they do, try to look at it in the best way you can. Life is what you make it, so make it joyful

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