Today is the start of my new beginning. I always knew there wasn't anyone I could trust but myself, other than God. But, for some reason I always trusted the wrong people for the wrong reasons. It's like I start to love someone and as soon as I do, it always turns out to be someone i should of never ever let get that close to me at all. This person was only there, not for me to love or to be loved by, but, only there because of what I had that moment to offer them. So after many lessons to be learned, finally I have learned to trust myself and myself only. This doesn't allow anyone to get close anymore and thats sad I know, but, thats the way it is now for me. Now I've found God, my Lord and savior, and now that I have, he helps me through this everyday. He guides me in a direction he knows thats best for me. I used to sit and pray for things, and those things never seem to appear, or those preayers never seem to be answered and I sit and wonder why. Later on down the road I came to understand, Understand that He had something better in store for me. A bigger and better blessing to be giving. It was then I began to learn patients. This was something I never knew I had. People always told me things come good to people who wait, but, I never believed them. Being hard headed and stubborn, I had to learn and figure out things the hard way. Now I'm in prison, the only thing and way I would ever change my ways, change my life. This I knew was my last chance, I had to learn, listen, and make something out of myself. The start of a new beginning!